My insanity

From last many days, I am not happy. The life is going the same way as it was but few changes have startled me. I never believed on people the way I did in the recent times. I think people don’t like selfless devotion to them in any relation. They are habitual of fakism and they only understand it and give it decent names of socializing. My friend once said that being Mr. Available for your loved ones or friends only harm your image. People feel irritated when we advance them with open heart and unlimited affection. They ignore you, and as a result make you feel very de-graded. This is the second time I am experiencing it in my life, more directly this time. They get messed out of true feelings and being exertive about them. This is world my friend we are living in. Today I am very ill and a very old story a person told me about himself is revised in my mind. He loved a girl madly in his student life. The Girl went on to become a Doctor and that person was still strugling. She refused him badly and told him that he should smell his socks before approaching to her. This has badly broken the concerned person. Fate is always to happen. The guy after going through a long time of restiveness and sheer pain of being rejected took it very positive. Then there was a day when he has such a decent place in the society and the same doctor came and re-called him their old love. The person while being sad, said that the time I needed you, you set me away because I was unlike an established person and now when many girls are ready to marry my status, myself because now I no longer am a street walker, and I know they all are in fake attraction which is more of my reputation and status in the society, how come I accept the fakest of them by making you my better-half? Offcourse the girl married another person but left many questions in my mind. I don’t trust you my sweet world.