I will be back!!!!! I will win….

They say that success is a journey, not the destination. This is a part of a mail I sent to someone. I know I talk too much my dear. People before achieving something big do that. So bear me too. lol.

It is not like that I am not happy from myself. My frustration is my biggest enemy. I am trying my level best to keep myself abreast with the studies that are surely going to be my treasure in future and will help me. InshAllah. I feel very down when I see myself stagnant which obviously I am not anymore. The time, rather very precious time of my life I lost has become an unforgettable curse of my life. It is folly to keep thinking about past and not working for the future. It surely would add insult to injury but it is not the case here. Not is the case that I am not working hard for the coming tasks but still when I can clearly envision that because of that time, I am losing a biggest opportunity which I can avail afterwards is making my life hell. I know it’s just the beginning and I must not loose hope and I can surely match with the peers of mine who are relatively ahead of me. I am not losing hope this time. Things for me these days are like the toughest time of my life. Ironically, it’s not my struggle or a study which is challenging me but the feeling of being slow in the race is what makes me very down at times. I am still on the track and working very hard but if it had not happen, I would have been doing this much easily and happily. My mind is always thinking like a computer, outputs the result that needs myself to be patient, little fatalist and more activist. I have not learnt to loose my battle. Time will bear the testimony of this fact that my destiny is calling me and asking me to be as focused as I am…… I will never be disgraceful to you my dear. Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.